"Summer Melody"

by l0neher0


Play me at the summer time
Listen to my every rhythm
Romantic scenes you can think
With this lone broken string


Touch the edges that's been rough
Heart struggles, broken into half
Sweet melody in it is still playing
Like your name is what I'm saying


Let me try this luck and charm
And captivates you into my arm
To the unknown I hope you stand
Walking beside me holding hands


It's not the scene I hope to see
But you darling sitting beside me
And your lovely innocent smile
Along with those beautiful eyes

"Second Chances"

by l0neher0


Letting her go might be the best choice I've taken
Not for myself, but for her and this love forsaken
Looking back, she came to me like the summer night
Then disappears at the breaking dawn with twilight

Our relationship is like Newton's third law of motion
Every action that we take creates equivalent reaction
It's not a question of whether the end justifies the mean
But how we will face the consequence that remains unseen

We are like magnets that are made up of the same pole
The closer we want to be together, the stronger it pull
And send us both apart going each opposite direction
Where there is nothing but life that's full of questions

If fate is a question that the almighty has given
And destiny is this answer we choose to entertain
Then I pray to him sincerely just this one instance
I hope in the next life, we take every second chances

"Hide and Seek"

by l0neher0

I'll look for you, will you look for me?
Like this dangerous string of fate
In this world that I used to forsake
Knowing that, please make no mistake

Everything about you, just too perfect
You might hide from me when we speak
Over a cup of coffee or green tea
Under a beautiful old Ginkgo tree

Damn girl, you really make me weak
Even a glance from you makes me freak
Sorry for this shameful behaviour
Suddenly I lost words to utter

After few days of seeking you
Comes a day, I finally found you
And I know just one smile from you
Brings death that's long overdue

Right in this single instance
Even for the briefest of chance
Reaper can have my life, exchange my time
And grant this wish with her lips on mine

"Dreams and Memories"

by l0neher0

I'm at a point of my life where what was once clear becomes clouded
Promises has been made a couple of times and poems has been created
We're separated, back together, broken and found each other again
I'm now living with nothing in front of me, no future, goal or aim
I'm too complacent, thinking I've got nothing to lose, nothing to gain
Maybe I'm just a fool, thinking I'll have her back if I lost her again

My feelings and desires are in mixed, urge and wishes are distorted
Comparing her to everyone else, even to fictional characters I created
Thinking of a perfect love story and one perfect lady with sense
But I was wrong; I was only about physical instead of the essence
A part of me keeps reminding that what I have now is the best
It's not perfect, but it certainly is the best among the rest

A diamond in the middle of ugly sedimentary rocks and pebbles
I am stranded again, lost in this abyssal thoughts and ripples
With my heart and my mind fighting over what is right or wrong
So I badly want to go back to those old beautiful days so long
The day when I rode that bike at the corner of that market shop
That moment when my eyes met hers and the time has been stopped

I want to go back to that day when I met her at the school lobby
How my heart skips whenever my vision is locked with that lady
How with her smile and stares makes her the prettiest every time
I want to experience that feeling of raging emotion one more time
When her every text messages and calls were worth a million fortune
I want to stand on that night again with all the fireworks in motion

Experience her first awkward yet gentle hug, such a strange captivity
I want to replay our first date at the plaza during Sinulog festivity
And taste her smooth lips one more time in the middle of the sea
That was my first embarrassing and memorable kiss, such a reverie
Let me visit that day when we had our huge fight in the street side
When I turned my back away from her but she rushes to hold me tight

I want to see her crying as I comfort her when we were being separated
In that balcony, I'd like to make love with her just like first we did
That's the first time, followed by another, the next night and nights after
Let's fast forward to those days when we were inside the movie theatres
When we did nothing but locked our lips, paying no attention to others
Those nights too, when she slept over at my place are precious encounters

When watching movies, eating, hugging, kissing, sleeping naked at its best
In fact, that day I was hoping she'll always have trouble at home and rest
Rest with me and stay there like that in my place and by my side forever
I want to experience again the thrill of jealousy even if it hurts me after
In that way, it shows how much I care and how much we mean to each other
I love those days when she tagged me along during her friend's get together

Even those college days’ activities when I did nothing but wait for her
But what was most memorable to me is our first trip all alone together
In that beautiful and romantic cityscape with the cold midnight breeze
And what I wanted best of all those landmark of happiness and memories
Is when I hold her hand and look at her, just looking and watching over her
Hug her from the behind without any warning, touch her and gently kiss her

Then I realized, what I wanted all this time was acceptance of who I am
A mysterious, emotional guy with strange sexual drive, a simple minded lad
Who only dreams of a simple life, build a house of my own as I grow old
Perhaps have a couple of kids and a cheerful and loving wife to behold
Have enough money to spend for their future and our coming retirement
And maybe go on adventure together and travel the world for amusement

I am matured, too matured that I've been carefully planning everything
That's why for once; I'd like to go out of this comfort zone and spring
Spring without any direction, unprepared and simply going with the flow of time
But then am I too late for this at this stage of my life? Or do I still have time?

"Lightning Strikes"

by l0neher0


Oh this rhythmic rain drops from the sky above
Is like pretty little glances from you my love
As I am here standing at the edge, listening
Thinking about what this cold weather may bring

Reaching a shadow of you with my hand extending
Waiting and hoping or maybe searching and finding
Mind is off to somewhere, a place unfamiliar
And then there was you, standing at the altar

 A beauty in white with tears falling in your eyes
As I walk slowly knees shaking along the aisle
What a perfect sight of a dream I have in mind
A beautiful ending of a song that's out of line

Then there was flicker, followed by great thunder
Lightning strikes, my heart's about to surrender
To this unprecedented desire that's been wondering
In my troubled mind that took over when sleeping

I look down with barefoot above the cemented ground
To my feet, the waters are racing and running down
Then I see a reflection of you dear from behind me
Hugging me, watching me with smile that drowns me

Like how quick you appear is as quickly you disappear
In a blink of an eye, reality let me taste despair
What can I do for a lady like you to have a connection?
When I'm even struggling to get your time and attention

But since I saw you, my days filled with your recollection
Girl tell me what to do, I’m getting crazy with this emotion
Despite that, I will still wait and hold on fate or destiny
Seeking for that single moment or even slightest opportunity

To be able to see you again, hold you and hug you gently
With your precious smile, delicate lips and eyes so lovely
Time is not on my favour, but one thing I always remember
Lightning never strikes twice the same place, yes, it never

"Find and Miss"

by l0neher0

I have her but why am I lonely?
She was perfect but why it's empty?
Is it just me or we're the same?
Something's missing I can't explain

Do not find love, they said
Let love find you, I agreed
But then why I am longing?
When I should have everything?

Just when I finally understood
That love is something to behold
Not just a burst of emotion
But a hard and real decision

For her I gave up everything
And choose one that's uncertain
Of a narrow cloudy horizon
In this dark bizarre region

Maybe you're asking if I’m regretting?
Definitely not, for I am only wondering
But will I be able to find it at least?
Or was there really something I miss?

"Red String"

by l0neher0

Enchanting, that's how it was for you and me
I was one of the many who dreams of thee
Looking back, ten years around the clock
In that narrow corridor, where our eyes locked

I was at the corner of that hallway, sitting
With my fragile heart rapidly beating
As you walk towards me wearing that smile
And with eyes that shines a million miles

We started with "Hi", "Hello" and love letters
Followed by words, "I love you" and "Take care"
And in that cold, dark new year's evening
Our story across the stars has been written

I can't believe how lucky I am to have you darling
That I always thought that I am just dreaming
Until you kissed my lips and took away my fear
Then every single doubts completely disappear

Our love story was more than Romeo and Juliet
Even that of Aladdin and Jasmine can't compete
Coz we live in our own perfect world
And dance at the rhythm of our own hearts

Like every story, a conflict maybe necessary
To test us both and challenges our maturity
At first we stood strong and held our ground
But eventually our world has crumbled down

When I lost you, a huge part of me was gone
Nights turned to days, hours turned to month
The bright world that we both created
Has turned into darkness and wasted

Time has passed and tides of time washes
Our past and those scattered memories
We are rebuilding from the mud and ashes
Trying to salve what little left of ourselves

But you know, God is one perfect artist
With red string of fate and destiny's twist
Our path found it's way back to each other
So we can celebrate a new chapter together

Yes, we are starting over but that doesn't matter
For this love goes beyond what's called forever
I'll stay by your side even for a lifetime
And hold you tight until the end of time

"Where it leads us"

by l0neher0

It all began with a smile
Until hello just come by
Then the conversation started
And since then it never ended

We have our own similarities
Despite difference in personalities
Our compatibility is undenying
Hoping that this is a new beginnng

I'm in the process of knowing you
Uncovering my closet infront of you
I know it'll definitely take a while
I'm not in a hurry so take your time

Time will tell and if God allow
Our little escapade will grow
Into something worth waiting for
Like an untold happy ever after

"Teach Me"

by l0neher0

Teach me how to be numb
And forget these pains so damn

Teach me how to be rude
To say the worst things that I could

Teach me how to be so strong
And stand the decision that gone wrong

Teach me how to forget you
Maybe I'll be fine for letting go

Teach me how to unlove
So memories of you still stop

But then all I really want is
For you to teach me this much

And tell me how to turn back time
Maybe, just maybe, you'll still be mine

"Mi Amor"

by l0neher0

My life has been ordinary
Before that day she found me
RIght in the middle of my solitude
She hold my hands with gratitude

The dark world I used to reside
Was turned into a bright side
The clouds of doubt and despair
With her kiss completely disappear

Maybe she never knew the essence
And the importance of her presence
To a simple guy who adores her
To the man who madly deeply loves her

Everything has been superficial
Extraordinary and really bizarre
But thank God for taking his time
And granted this gift and love of mine

I am single

All these years, I thought I was fine being alone but then I realized I am longing for that forgotten feeling of how it is to be in love. That feeling when someone loves you and cares for you. Someone whose hands fitted yours and will stay by your side even at your most unpleasant state.

One day, someone asked me a familiar question that I never took seriously before until the question itself became a taboo.

"Why are you still single?" Truth is, I also don't have a clue, I can say and claim that I choose to stay single but that is a big lie. In fact, all this time I've been searching for that special someone and ventured to impossible scenarios which includes creating my own fantasy of a perfect relationship. But God knows nothing is really working, not one single piece will fit. It used to be so simple and easy but not anymore and I don't know why.

I can give you a hundred of reasons and alibis but it will never be enough to answer the question. Until someone said that maybe, I'm still not over my last relationship. I was surprised on how much those words affected me. I definitely thought I've moved on and over her because it has been two years or more since we broke up. I always thought that keeping possibilities open and not burning bridges is fine.

Now I'm feeling guilty and is trying to justify why I still keep our old pictures and letters that hold so much memories. Letting her go was a mistake I will forever regret. And here I am thinking that maybe, I'm paying for that mistake and suffering its consequences.

I've been too absorbed with the idea of finding a special someone. But for what purpose? Is it to prove to myself and to others that I'm finally over my past? Or is it because of how this society has become? A society where being single is like a contagious disease. And being in a relationship is the new standard. Thinking about it makes me realized that maybe what I really need is not to find someone special but to find my long lost self.

"Enchantment"

by l0neher0

My entrance might be too sudden and untimely
But I was just around that corner waiting patiently
Stalking? For that word I'll have to disagree
Enchanted? Yes! That surely describes me

Before I continue I hope you can forgive me
Coz the world has gone modern but not me
I'll have to stick with the traditional ways
This poor soul will go back to those old days

Those days when writing letters is the key
From the first time I saw you, I knew already
That the sun never set at the East
But rather in those eyes of yours where it rest

That fairytale is not just a mere fantasy
But a reality that lies in your smile so lovely
You know, I haven't been to neverland
But in you I can see the wonderland

You girl is an ultimate dream of any man
If only God can help out and lend me a hand
Send you my thoughts so you'll understand
This poor heart's desire is you, the only one

"Rain Memories"

by l0neher0

I'm lying in my bed clueless
Of what my tomorrow possess
Until the cold weather sieze
My silent solitude with ease

Beside me the old radio is on
Classic is playing in my room
Slowly the rain is coming
Until the rain drops in rhythm

Hearing the rain brings me back
To those old memories I hate to track
Like an old movie in a classic way
And that old oak tree we used to play

Remember that broken carrousel?
Or the little secrets we never tell?
How about those cute origami we created?
And the love letters we traded?

Those were the old days, I know
That keep haunting me until now
Whenever it rains they come back
Then disappear when the rain stops

"The guy hiding on a cap"

by l0neher0

He wore his cap to hide his shortcoming
To build his confidence and self-esteem
He can be anyone, he will feel and act differently
But gets back to being insecure at the end of the day

This is the tale of the man hiding on a cap
The man with his experiences behind his back
When he takes off his cap everything changes
He'll turn into a man full of world's rages

His eyes bear a struggle not everyone can understand
His body took a hardship you cannot withstand
But despite his physical incompetence and disorder
His heart is full of love and has a lot to offer

"Daydream"

by l0neher0

I hope you can forgive me
If my words may offend thee
Coz when my head is working
My hand will start moving
When I look at you I can see
A night between you and me
With your lips on top of mine
And holding your hands tight
But please don't laugh at me
This is the fantasy I see
A daydream of a lone poet
About a girl that he just met

"The things you never see"

by l0neher0

The things you never see matters the most
Like how I adore you like a lovely rose

And when I stare atyou without you knowing
With my feelings inside I keep hiding

Like how I badly seek your attention
And my silent scream and strong emotion

The way I whispher your name in my head
And how in this heart of mine, it resounded

You should see my face when I watch you in silence
And how my expression changes with your presence

You should visit me when I'm dreaming
And see how my world to you is revolving

These are the things you never see
The things that shows how I love thee

"Blind Affection"

by l0neher0

Love me with close eyes
So you won't see what I hide
Beneath this beautiful fantasy
Is a scary looking reality

Love me with close eyes
And see what is hiding
Past the demon disguise
And my little shortcoming

Love me with close eyes
Beyond the physical side
So please love me with close eyes
And for once let your heart decide

"Lost Rhythm"

by l0neher0

I dance in the broken melody of love
Always dreaming of things I never have
'Til I met you in that lane I tried
Where the future and present collide

I'm an unsolved puzzle with missing piece
And you my everything completed me best
Along that lost rhythm we both found
A love so true, pure and beyond

Beyond the death, time and boundary
Against the world, fate and destiny
So dance with me one more time my darling
Here in our magical lost rhythm

Just my two cents of love

When it comes to love, we get to meet different types of people. There were those who introduced us to the innocent side of love. And those who let us experienced love first hand. There were also those who caused us our first heartbreak. And of course who could forget that love that came unexpectedly. Then there was that one that showed us the real meaning of love. Who loved us the same way that we loved them. And let me also mention that one who got away. And those who were simply there to test us. Promises us of perfect world and happy ever after. But left us in dungeon of despair, lost and misery. Finally, when all is said and done. When the wait is over, come that one great love. That will put all our pieces back together.

"A Chance"

by l0neher0


I saw this girl blessed with beauty
Her face is the concept of purity
With eyes that sparks like crystals
And red lips full of life and charms


Her personality showcase elegance
Nevertheless a beautiful abundance
She is the rose in every thorn
Sunrise in each and every morn


She is the sky and I am the land
Looking up to her same with every man
She is the moon in the lonely night
Wish I could be her armored knight


If dream can come true by any chances
Then I will be glad and the happiest
This love I offer just to showcase
A pure intention to you my dearest


These are merely wishful thinking
Huge difference is clearly showing
For I am just one out of the many
Since admirers she have are plenty


At the end of the day I'll just be
A very ordinary man loving thee
Someone so precious and pure
Like diamonds worth to treasure

"These three words"

by l0neher0

 
Am I allowed to love thee when thy hearts not mine?
Am I allowed to care for thee when I am left behind?
Am I allowed to do this when all I could ever find..
Is this unrequited love that could be a blind

Thy love's a dream in the night of loneliness
Thy love's a light I only see in my darkness
Thy love's a wish I hope to share my happiness
And hoping that one day you'll be my princess

 Could you be the fate I want to see?
Could you be that long time destiny?
Or you are just a beautiful fantasy?
That reside along in my past memory

It's a decision

I used to think that love is something you don't have control with.It happens the less time you expect it. And when it happens, you can never teach your foolish heart whom to love and when to love.

But then lately, I came realize, that was not love at all. That was simply an affection, a simple admiration. Love is more than that. That even a single word like "affection" or "admiration" is not enough to describe it. They are but the tip of the iceberg. It's like tasting a new dish. 

You admire it based from your own taste standard. But loving the dish means knowing how to cook the dish and sharing the dish with other people while you continue to love and enjoy it.

Remember, it was never the option that matters, it was the decision. And this decision is not just one time process, it is but a lifetime. Every single day, you decide to love the person. Every single day, you decide to complete that person. Every single day, you decide to stay with that person. Because love is a decision. 

"My Sonnet of Love"

by l0neher0


I compare you to the flowers of May, bloom the prettiest
Like the wind of the early morn that touches my bare skin
A beautiful sunrise of sleepy earth with blue sky's kiss
Like the marvelous waves in vast ocean floor is dancin'
I adore you like a deity of love and elegance
And the splendid singing of the majestic canary
Like dancing in the lavender's field full of sweet fragrance
With someone like you, a priestess of beauty and glory
I love you like the love songs played on the Christmas evening
And that familiar rhythm of street lanterns that are twinkling
A joyful melody that this cold starry night will bring
From the lonely heart of a man playing with broken string
Oh this enchanting fondness and reverie is profound
Bizarre it may seem but you simply got me spellbound

"Expressions"

by l0neher0


You are that wildest dream of the endless night
A beautiful nightmare that keeps hunting me down
I'd rather stay dreaming than waking up in daylight
When waking up means a life without you around


You are that dosage of drug for me to stay alive
A deadly poison to end the painful loneliness
If taking you means a beautiful daily life
Then I'll have your drug as my happiness


You are that blazing flame in the fireplace
So bright, so magnificent, pure and attractive
If being close to you is like a deadly race
I'll stay beside you no matter how destructive


You are the painful thorns surrounded the rose
Sharp as blade, sting like a bumble bee
That can stop a foolish heart when it is close
I'll still hold you tight and love thee

"Dark Rendezvous"

by l0neher0
 
I was born inside that dark and tight dwelling.
Where I can feel and hear everything.
Darkness is my mentor and loneliness is my friend.
The progress is slow. Development is almost stagnant.
I always hear the rain cry.
And the bird singing above the sky.
But deep inside I know a desire is burning.
Hoping for that day when I will be flying.
And catch a glimpse of the first morning.
Until then I will be holding.
That dream of a journey across the world.
And reach the summit of the highest mountain.
I know my wings will bring me there.
Eventually these wings will grow tired.
And crashes me six feet underground.
So when everything is said and done.
I know nothing will be lelf but me and myself.
When flesh turns to ashes and disappear.
And only these memories will remain.
Until then, there will be no pitiful goodbyes.
I'll simply close these eyes.
Wear that familiar comical smile.
And leave my heart wide open.
As I slowly crawl back to the point.
Where the beginning meets the end.

Once Upon A Long Distance Relationship

Since it's raining and I got nothing else to do, I came up with an idea of pointing out the stages of a long distance relationship including its pros and cons based from personal experience and other materials I've read before. This serves as a self-reflection and at the same time a helpful tips for those who are into this kind of relationship or perhaps are still planning to.

We heard about LDR frequently, more often than not, it denotes a negative responses or opinions from everyone around us. From friends who came from a devastating LDR, from television shows, movies, books, novels and alike. But what is really a long distance relationship?

In my own opinion, based from my personal experience, it is by far the hardest and most challenging relationship of all. It requires a LOT from both parties and needs more sacrifices that you could ever imagine.

It can also be a test of one's courage and maturity. A test of faith and loyalty.

Here are the 5 stages of a long distance relationship  : 

1. Experimental stage - "Let's cross the bridge when we get there" -  This is the first part and maybe the most easy stage. You simply go with the flow, no direction, nothing. You expect what is unexpected. Depending upon the foundation of the relationship, the effect would normally vary. If the relationship is new, the attachment isn't that great so the risk can be lower but confidence could also be low. If the relationship foundation has rooted deep enough, then risk is a bit higher but confidence is there.

2. Excitement Stage - "Effort is the key" - Second part is where we think of things we will do. We plan out what are the steps to take to make it work. We are determined to work it out and prove to others that they are wrong about LDR. We gather every resources we have to keep the fire burning. We keep the communication constant and open. We pour our each of our time for this to work. This is where we anticipate for a text message every now and then. We do a contant videochat or a routinary phone conversation.  Even a short message or text means a lot.

3. Grey stage - "More than words" -  Grey stage is where the relationship starts to get bitter each day. This is the stage where our patience, our faith and our loyalty is being tested the most. This is where when we need our partner but he/she isn't there. When we expected for a text message or a chat message and got nothing. Communication is no longer contant. We may get a text or a chat message, but we feel it is no longer enough. The stage when you attend a friend's wedding and were expected to be with your partner but slapped with a painful truth that you're alone. That watching blockbuster movie is not as exciting as how it was with both of you together. This is also the part where temptation play its role. Then we start realizing just how bad the distance is affecting us drastically. How it left an empty space inside us. We start missing out some of the important things or events in our partner's life and vice-versa.   

4. Doubt stage - "Just give me a reason" - This is the stage where we start to wonder what our partner is into. We are in need of assurances. We seek for reasons, we seek for guidance and closure. This is also where communication is no longer contant. We wonder why our partner is no longer that consistent. We think of possible causes such as third party, or perhaps our partner no longer love us the way we love them. We blame it to the situation, we blame it to the distance. This is when the never-ending fight can happen that takes a week or a month to be settled or worst left unsettled. 

5. Acceptance stage - "Is it worth fighting for?" - This is the last stage but not necessarily the final stage. This is where we do self assessment. We start to weigh the situation and see every angle. The stage where we think of whether it is worth keeping for or not. We start to accept what long distance relationship is. We either leave it the way it is and do nothing about it or discuss it with our partner in order to work things out. There are only two destination : to give up or back to stage 2. 

Now that we have discussed the 5 stages of a long distance relationship, let me point out some pros and cons for this type of relationship : 

Pros : 

1. You get to know yourself better and what you are capable of - This is a learning process where you learn to become independent that there is more to this world than just being around your partner. You learn to love yourself more.

2. You get to know your partner better - This is a way of testing just how pure your partner's love to you as much as how you love your partner. 

3. Building a stronger relationship - When you are able to overcome all challenges and trial in this relationship, you get to see a whole new solid relationship tested by time.

4. Seeing what is important - Your time together become more precious to you, even the small gestures such as holding hands together and saying nothing means so much and you learn to appreciate it more than how you appreciated it before.

5. Contentment - We all know for a fact that it is human's nature to feel discontentment for almost everything, this relationship teaches you how to feel contented of little things you have. 

Cons : 

1. Physical intimacy - One single touch could mean thousands of word. Have you ever wonder how fulfilled you are just having your partner beside you, holding hands together even without saying anything? That's how powerful it is.

2. Where were you when I need you? - This is when we need our partner beside us for moral support or immediate attention or when we feel helpless knowing that our partner needs us but we are nowhere near.

3. Time conflict - Time is gold and so thus our relationship, it's daybreak in your partner's location but it's midnight here, sacrifice is the answer but seriously that isn't enough.

4. Loneliness and emptiness - These two usually come together. That undescribable feeling when we seek for something that even us cannot identify, a feeling of emptiness and then there goes loneliness playing its part.

5. Lover's quarrel - No matter how much effort you put into it, if the other person does not wish to talk to you, you will face a dead end, nothing you can do about it, not unless you have enough finance to go to your partner's location to see your partner personally.

Overall, long distance relationship is still just a relationship. How we handle it is what matters most. It may have turned out bad for other people but that does not necessarily mean it will turn out the same for you. Everything is a never ending cycle of decision, even love itself is a decision. And whatever your decision is, there is always a consequences to face. 

"Painful Serenity"

by l0neher0


You showed me a world I've never seen before
Where the grand sky meets the deep blue ocean
Of a never ending vast horizon of tomorrow
At an everlasting sunset with a calm breeze
I finally found that place I can settle in
Then out of nowhere dark clouds are coming
A huge disturbing thunder is fast approaching
I look around and found myself alone, standing
On the same ground where you left me longing
Here I thought, I finally found my best chapter
Here I thought, I finally had my greatest fleet
Then I realized it was just a deadly reality
Camouflage with your bittersweet fantasy
Like a soundless scream of painful serenity

"I hate you"

by l0neher0

I hate you. I hate you because once in my life you were exactly what ive been looking for.

I hate you because you were that dream i had and lost

I hate the way you smile that put colors in my grey and dull world.

I hate those eyes that used to stare me with passion.

I hate your voice and every words you've spoken that are like psalms in my ear.

I hate your scent that is a drug to me that keep me asking for more.

I hate you because of all the things you did, i still love you endlessly...

"I Dream"

by l0nerher0

...I dream of the vast ocean floor.
As I lie beneath the starry midnight sky.
Watching the grand fireworks finale...

..I dream of the cold morning breeze.
As I wait for the splendid sunrise of today.
Looking forward to a magnificent sunset of twilight...

...I dream of these little things..
and hoping that someday, somehow,
I get to spend these with you...

Inconsistent is normal

I realized, one can be consistent by being inconsistent. Because this world is not only made up of two options but a lot of choices. We may decide on one thing but do another thing later on. To me, it's perfectly normal. It's not as simple as black and white. We may love a person today but hate the same person tomorrow. As what they said, everything changes, nothing is permanent. The only constant in this world is change. 

However, in my opinion, what's important is that the end justifies the means. It's the reasons behind our actions. We don't decide things out of nothing, we decide because of our reasons.

Our reasons could be lame, shallow or invalid for others but that's fine. It may hurt other people but that's okay. That's part of life, eventually they'll get over it.

But I'm not saying we owe everyone an explanation, I'm saying we owe it to those who are directly affected by our actions. Let's be true, let's be real. Let us stand by our decision.

"Ignorance is a bliss but being ignored is a torture" 

"Dancing firefly"

by l0neher0

Been counting the days since the moment we met
Reminiscing the memories in this romance we get
Days and nights have passed when you were beside
Now all I ever see is this emptiness inside


We used to be so cool, we used to be so fun
Looking back, everything is great under the sun
But where are we now, I always wonder
This damn distance is really a bother


Every day, I keep thinking, how to make love flourish
Thinking of ways, like yesterday's poems we cherish
The poet inside is gone, the artist cannot be found
Here I am standing, stranded under the same ground


They say guys may flirt all day
Getting attractive to a lot of beauty
But guys are pretty complicated, I agree
Coz when they love, it is for real you see


I seldom said those words I used to say
You might be wonderin' if I'm going to stay
At one point, I won't, on second thought, I will
Confused if destiny or faith is the same as freewill


At the end of the day, I came to realize
No matter how the future we analyze
There will always be that uncertainty
In the middle of this silence and serenity


Oh dear, I might be different right now
But don't worry if I ever changed somehow
For change is constant like the king of Troy
Yet look closely for I'm still the same boy


When everythin' has been said and done
When sorrows and tears are all gone
And your happiness maybe with another man
Do remember that once there was someone


Who dance with you in love's melody
Like a dancing firefly in your balcony
Who would believe in days beyond forever
Like a fairytale with happy ever after


Someone who scold you when naughty
And hugs you when you are weary
Someone who will kiss you gently
And loves you more than anybody

"Beyond Adorable"

by l0neher0


I adore you beyond that make up and lipstick on your face.
I adore you beyond those shining jewelries and accessories.

I adore you beyond that contactlense and eyelashes extension.
I adore you beyond those sexy pose, dress and fashion.

I adore you beyond the physical aspect of words and beauty.
I adore you for who you were, who you are and who you will be.

I adore you and it is beyond love at first and second sight.
I adore you beyond everything and love you at every sight.

"Rose"

by l0neher0


You are bestowed with a majestic color
Like green, red, pink, yellow and a whole lot more
Your delicate nature is astonishing
Amidst the torns to you are surrounding


You caught my attention with supreme beauty
Like a light in the endless tunnel of mystery
Few steps away and I can't hide the burning desire
Reaching out my hand to get closer to where you are.


It was the elegance of the filters that caught my sight
But what keeps me staring is the silhouette of your light
I even went past behind the physical beauty's boundary
And choose to go beyond what meets my vision of beauty


All this time I've been searching in my reverie
Like watching a TV series with romantic story
It feels like I'm torn between fantasy and reality
And if this is a dream then I'd be sleeping for eternity


I want to pick you off your stem for me to carry
But that would be selfish and will cause you misery
So for now I'll be contented in watching you darling
Here at the border of friendship and love everlasting

"Untitled"

by l0neher0  

(special dedication to a friend)

You little one was born with light
That shines to everyone so bright
The joy and happiness you bring
To everyone will always remain

No words can ease the longing
Even tears can't describe the pain
Yes you are now gone physically
But forever in our hearts you stay

So farewell to you dear little one
You just arrived but left too soon
Angels in heaven to you will guide
As you walk to our father's side

"Let me be"

by l0neher0

Let me be your hero without a name
Your superstar beyond the fame
Your knight in a shining armour
That protects you forevermore

Let me be the sun of your everyday
The shades whenever your astray
I’ll be the hand that will guide your way
And your comforter on your rainy day

Let me be that shoulder for you to cry
And accept the feelings you keep inside
For when everyone else lose a time
I’ll make one for you even against a tide

Let me be that love song you like
And that best love of your life
For in my heart you dear is the best
And will be special above the rest

"Poem"

by l0neher0

A poem holds hundreds of emotion, lying and waiting to be discovered like a treasure box in an isolated paradise.

It expresses thousands of feeling that even a paragraph can't contain.

It tells a million journey that were left forgotten across the memory lane.

It is an artistry of love, passion and life. That surpasses even the boundary of time, the infinity and beyond.